Deep Inside

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A few years ago, I was invited to minister in gospel crusades and revival meetings in the outskirts of Kitale town(Kenya). I love missions, any opportunity to win souls for Christ fills me with joy. Together with my team we traveled from Murang’a (Kenya) to Kitale ready to serve the Lord. We took a night bus to Kitale from Nairobi and arrived in the morning. At arrival my host was still running errands but the church members assigned to meet us and help us settle were right on time. After traveling a whole night on bus there was no way the photo they had on their fliers and banners and the person who has come from the bus with a scarf around her face would look the same. For some reason, the lady incharge greeted us and without waiting for introductions concluded that one of the Ladies (sister Maggie) in my team was Rev.Lucy. I remember the looks that the other teammates gave me when she gave me sister Maggie’s bag to carry for her. I decided not to correct her to avoid embarrassing her and carried Maggie’s bag. When we arrived at the Pastors’ house,she again requested I help her in the Kitchen to serve the Revd and the other guests. At this point Maggie is ready to burst out “no I am not Revd Lucy she is”. Before she could say anything I asked the lady to lead the way to the kitchen. As we prepared food, my mind kept racing, why did she think Maggie is me? What led to this mistaken identity?

Suffice to say, when everyone was having breakfast our host came in and while he greeted us the lady realized her mistake. The look on her face and the outbursts of laughter from our team mingled the embarrassment and the nervousness to form an inside joke.( If you know you know).

After the revival meetings that night, the lady came to my room to explain why she thought Maggie was me. I still laugh when I recall what she said.

Kusema ukweli mchunganji, unakaa mkonda sana sikudhania wewe ndiye mgeni wetu.”

[To say the truth Pastor, you are too skinny I didn’t think you were the guest speaker. ]

Many times we form perceptions of people based on their outward looks or based on the norms. But, I have come to know that beyond what we see the real deal is on the inside. It’s is unfortunate that in this era of social media we are quick to judge and draw conclusions from what people allow us to see.

What is deep inside? People look on the outside but our God looks deep inside. Before you judge,dismiss or disregard someone can we seek to know them deep inside?

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
1 Samuel 16:7 AMP

Like Prophet Samuel or my Lady in this article we have drawn conclusions about people from their outward appearances. Can we commit to make an effort of knowing people beyond the surface? I don’t expect you to know everyone deep inside but check around your circle of friends. Do you know when they are struggling despite beautiful updates on their social media accounts?Do you know your spouse,sibling or child deep inside to know that when they say am okay by lips but inside their are screaming am not okay?

Deep inside……..

Am no longer skinny

11 Comments on “Deep Inside”

  1. I remember that mission, especially the great manifestation of God through the Holy Spirit. We thank God for His glory got manifest despite the weakness of your looks.

  2. I remember that mission, especially the great manifestation of God through the Holy Spirit. We thank God for His glory got manifest despite the weakness of your looks.
    IRENE

  3. PastorLucyPaynter – I'm a perfectionist, I work the details to the dots in the i's And I believe if we fall and keep breathing we can always arise. Sometimes I wonder, 'if I'd become everything I wanted as a girl, Would I be better than this or caught up in a different whirl?' I close my eyes and hear the voices of those who look up to me, The hopeful eyes in their pictures.....I think I can see what they see, I want to wake up one morning and see the people I care about happy. I'm a perfectionist, I work the details to the dots in the i's And I believe if we fall and keep breathing we can always arise. I pretend I'm not hurt even when I am, 'Cause when fighting ain't an option,the least we can do is keep calm. There're times when I feel terribly overwhelmed, But bless everything through which I've helmed, There's been God, there's been you, to pull me through. I oft'n worry that the things I so believe in may not be true, And you can trust me to cry at the idea of failing in what I set out to do. I'm a perfectionist, I work the details to the dots in the i's And I believe if we fall and keep breathing we can always arise. I understand that it's hard to please everyone, But if I could, there's nothing I'd want more than to see a smile on the face of every man. I believe and so say everyone deserves a second chance, I judge not...at least never at first glance. I dream of the day when I can look at my life and say 'this is where I wanted to be. I have, I do, I always will try the best in everyone to see, And I hope at the end of my life, I will not have left a trail of broken hearts behind me.
    PastorLucyPaynter

    We give God the glory

    • PastorLucyPaynter – I'm a perfectionist, I work the details to the dots in the i's And I believe if we fall and keep breathing we can always arise. Sometimes I wonder, 'if I'd become everything I wanted as a girl, Would I be better than this or caught up in a different whirl?' I close my eyes and hear the voices of those who look up to me, The hopeful eyes in their pictures.....I think I can see what they see, I want to wake up one morning and see the people I care about happy. I'm a perfectionist, I work the details to the dots in the i's And I believe if we fall and keep breathing we can always arise. I pretend I'm not hurt even when I am, 'Cause when fighting ain't an option,the least we can do is keep calm. There're times when I feel terribly overwhelmed, But bless everything through which I've helmed, There's been God, there's been you, to pull me through. I oft'n worry that the things I so believe in may not be true, And you can trust me to cry at the idea of failing in what I set out to do. I'm a perfectionist, I work the details to the dots in the i's And I believe if we fall and keep breathing we can always arise. I understand that it's hard to please everyone, But if I could, there's nothing I'd want more than to see a smile on the face of every man. I believe and so say everyone deserves a second chance, I judge not...at least never at first glance. I dream of the day when I can look at my life and say 'this is where I wanted to be. I have, I do, I always will try the best in everyone to see, And I hope at the end of my life, I will not have left a trail of broken hearts behind me.
      PastorLucyPaynter

    • PastorLucyPaynter – I'm a perfectionist, I work the details to the dots in the i's And I believe if we fall and keep breathing we can always arise. Sometimes I wonder, 'if I'd become everything I wanted as a girl, Would I be better than this or caught up in a different whirl?' I close my eyes and hear the voices of those who look up to me, The hopeful eyes in their pictures.....I think I can see what they see, I want to wake up one morning and see the people I care about happy. I'm a perfectionist, I work the details to the dots in the i's And I believe if we fall and keep breathing we can always arise. I pretend I'm not hurt even when I am, 'Cause when fighting ain't an option,the least we can do is keep calm. There're times when I feel terribly overwhelmed, But bless everything through which I've helmed, There's been God, there's been you, to pull me through. I oft'n worry that the things I so believe in may not be true, And you can trust me to cry at the idea of failing in what I set out to do. I'm a perfectionist, I work the details to the dots in the i's And I believe if we fall and keep breathing we can always arise. I understand that it's hard to please everyone, But if I could, there's nothing I'd want more than to see a smile on the face of every man. I believe and so say everyone deserves a second chance, I judge not...at least never at first glance. I dream of the day when I can look at my life and say 'this is where I wanted to be. I have, I do, I always will try the best in everyone to see, And I hope at the end of my life, I will not have left a trail of broken hearts behind me.
      PastorLucyPaynter

      Amen

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